Looking the other way

The clock strikes 12 and the tale begins No missing glass slippers left behind, just my self esteem As once again I fall prey to your schemes Just as the night closes in, all my pretenses come undone I sit alone feeling faded until you come along and sing me praises You return with a…

Bend over backwards

I have always had a penchant Of betting on men who I knew were indifferent I have always had a pattern Of expecting affection from men who I knew were incompetent and yet I didn’t learn from such disappointments rather I continued to yearn I have always had a preference For men whose minds were…

Perspective

For the longest time I thought I wasn’t worth a dime I thought of you as my greatest mistake Seldom realizing that it was pain blocking my vision for my own sake The harrowing trauma I have been left with adorn me like battle scars All I wanted was to escape the suffering so I…

The End.

[ TRIGGER WARNING: SUICIDE ] I remember that night as clear as day As my mind oscillated on the edge of insanity I will never forget that fateful fatal night It would be the only time when I came the closest to taking my own life (suicide) I remember being overcome with the feeling of…

Dark desires

For once, I wanted to take the dare in a game To play with fire and be engulfed in it transgressing flames I took the bait and painted my lips red A come hither hue of passion igniting its flames And as he looked at me when he walked in A mischievous gleam sneaking as…

To hold on or move on ?

This qualm inducing quarantine has got me thinking Obsessively and constructively, about my triggers and traumas that often have me sinking Into the deep dark devoid chasm of reminiscence and repentance A constant burden looming upon my conscience and sentience A regurgitation of all suppressed feelings and memories escaping the shackles of my control A…

Domestic Violence

It happened during our daily nightly conversations When my mom asked me about my views regarding a movie This movie being a case in point about domestic violence She brought up the topic with such practiced nonchalance to gauge my reaction, that it made me silently suspicious We exchanged our respective opinions which had such…

Toxic tantalizing traits

Our connection seemed beyond irreparable The heady appeal of its uncertainty worked like an aphrodisiac Every time a sense of peaceful monotony settled in, you’d sweep in on your dark horse as narrated in the fable You would visit each time with a promise of unbridled passion, an under current of mysteries to be unraveled…

Survivor/ Victim ?

As I look extensively at my device willing it to work optimally It seems like the break down transpiring is mine rather than the device’s My little bother seems bothered to witness my unfamiliar demeanor My mother just looks from behind the pillars gently leaving a worried exculpatory sigh For she knew and had been…

In light of my fears

It is often said that your first love sets the foundation of what love means to you therein after When I ponder over this I seldom wonder if the same ever applied to me The only thought that occurs to me is one thing that you undoubtedly taught me was fear The fear of being…