Sexuality

I’m often tormented of by the terrifying thought Did I ever have a choice to begin with ? Or was it made for me the moment I succumbed to the deceiving plot ? To know that such an integral part of your being can be influenced Shaped and molded in accordance with malicious manipulative motives…

Contradictory Conundrum

The allure of mystery Concealed behind the tapestry A deep desire for anonymity A tryst between passion and sanity Longing for thrill of the chase Belonging within an impaired appreciation for authenticity, alas dormant it stays Obscure needs shrouded in ambiguity Wanting to consociate yet escaping the same out of fear of inability Oscillating within…

Closure

A befitting end to a beautiful beginning To close the chapter to an unprecedented story Craving the only thing that seemed out of my reach The torment of tumultuous thoughts seeking an explanation of your breach Countless sleepless nights and days that were marred with the nightmare of your haunting memories Churning within my mind…

Her

I should’ve known it back then The times when I saw you with her The way you spoke of her, the way she spoke to you It all seemed transparent and transient As I felt the companionship of your love become reclusive of the warmth of my touch I should’ve known it back then When…

Honest journey of healing.

A random thought one day lead to the daunting realization That it is soon going to be year since that fateful day A word vomit spewed on a mail that put an end to it all Its been a constant struggle since that day An unresolved battle between feeling nothing and everything all at once…

Letter to the ones I ghosted

Ghosting is a term used for ending contact with a person without explanation Its not a trait that I associate with myself to be honest But over the past few months Amidst the transformative journey my life has ensued on I tend to naturally escape conversations, confrontations and commiserations I’m no longer in pursuit to…

Regeneration of reminiscence

There are certain days that make you feel invincible Like anything that ever had power over you has washed away during its mourning Then there come certain days Those which remind you that you haven’t outlived those dreadful days far behind Today was one of those kind of days The kind that revisits and relives…

toxic tinted glasses

My sister sent me a post today that struck home like a million bolts It said that “when you look at someone from rose colored glasses, its funny how all the red flags just look like flags” As I read it hit home with the force of the untamed sea collapsing onto the shores Nothing…

The struggle to be alive

My hands tremble And dread takes over my soul As soon as I finally prepare myself to succumb and embrace To the looming feeling of distraught despair of being alive Whilst barely breathing, excusably existing and surviving sorrowful The life within me fades every other second as the life force inside me encumbers I feel…

beginning of the ending

They say the matters of love are governed by the heart Then when does the rationality of one’s mind come into play ? Maybe its when your succinct gut instinct tells you otherwise I should’ve seen the signs or maybe I should’ve believed them when I witnessed your perfunctory deeds Maybe my heart had also…