Bend over backwards

I have always had a penchant Of betting on men who I knew were indifferent I have always had a pattern Of expecting affection from men who I knew were incompetent and yet I didn’t learn from such disappointments rather I continued to yearn I have always had a preference For men whose minds were…

The End.

[ TRIGGER WARNING: SUICIDE ] I remember that night as clear as day As my mind oscillated on the edge of insanity I will never forget that fateful fatal night It would be the only time when I came the closest to taking my own life (suicide) I remember being overcome with the feeling of…

To hold on or move on ?

This qualm inducing quarantine has got me thinking Obsessively and constructively, about my triggers and traumas that often have me sinking Into the deep dark devoid chasm of reminiscence and repentance A constant burden looming upon my conscience and sentience A regurgitation of all suppressed feelings and memories escaping the shackles of my control A…

Toxic tantalizing traits

Our connection seemed beyond irreparable The heady appeal of its uncertainty worked like an aphrodisiac Every time a sense of peaceful monotony settled in, you’d sweep in on your dark horse as narrated in the fable You would visit each time with a promise of unbridled passion, an under current of mysteries to be unraveled…

Survivor/ Victim ?

As I look extensively at my device willing it to work optimally It seems like the break down transpiring is mine rather than the device’s My little bother seems bothered to witness my unfamiliar demeanor My mother just looks from behind the pillars gently leaving a worried exculpatory sigh For she knew and had been…

Contradictory Conundrum

The allure of mystery Concealed behind the tapestry A deep desire for anonymity A tryst between passion and sanity Longing for thrill of the chase Belonging within an impaired appreciation for authenticity, alas dormant it stays Obscure needs shrouded in ambiguity Wanting to consociate yet escaping the same out of fear of inability Oscillating within…

Her

I should’ve known it back then The times when I saw you with her The way you spoke of her, the way she spoke to you It all seemed transparent and transient As I felt the companionship of your love become reclusive of the warmth of my touch I should’ve known it back then When…

Honest journey of healing.

A random thought one day lead to the daunting realization That it is soon going to be year since that fateful day A word vomit spewed on a mail that put an end to it all Its been a constant struggle since that day An unresolved battle between feeling nothing and everything all at once…

Letter to the ones I ghosted

Ghosting is a term used for ending contact with a person without explanation Its not a trait that I associate with myself to be honest But over the past few months Amidst the transformative journey my life has ensued on I tend to naturally escape conversations, confrontations and commiserations I’m no longer in pursuit to…

Regeneration of reminiscence

There are certain days that make you feel invincible Like anything that ever had power over you has washed away during its mourning Then there come certain days Those which remind you that you haven’t outlived those dreadful days far behind Today was one of those kind of days The kind that revisits and relives…