toxic tinted glasses

My sister sent me a post today that struck home like a million bolts It said that “when you look at someone from rose colored glasses, its funny how all the red flags just look like flags” As I read it hit home with the force of the untamed sea collapsing onto the shores Nothing…

The struggle to be alive

My hands tremble And dread takes over my soul As soon as I finally prepare myself to succumb and embrace To the looming feeling of distraught despair of being alive Whilst barely breathing, excusably existing and surviving sorrowful The life within me fades every other second as the life force inside me encumbers I feel…

beginning of the ending

They say the matters of love are governed by the heart Then when does the rationality of one’s mind come into play ? Maybe its when your succinct gut instinct tells you otherwise I should’ve seen the signs or maybe I should’ve believed them when I witnessed your perfunctory deeds Maybe my heart had also…

humanity

In a sea of faces familiar Yet none seems to register to my sight as peculiar As my heart beats frantically trying to search for solace My conscience reminds me that times have changed and so has its pace Time now just flies by in a haze As I cajole myself that this is just…

Soliloquy

It felt like my whole world came crashing down yet again My mirage of happy times shatter inaudibly, breaking apart like we did as you stuck always to your own ways and bargain The emotions preserved latent below the surface now bubble up trying to escape my chest like feral cries As I make sense…

loyalty

The concept of loyalty evades in this day and age Like its a draconian myth that seems far too out of date You may try to be authentic to the good in your soul But selfish people will always make you believe that the good in your soul is misplaced for the era you are…

Shape shifting shadows

The sunlight bathed her entirety through small porous holes Rather than feeling its warmth, she felt a chilling breeze Once she caught the reflection of her shadow staring back inanimately As she tried to extend her embrace towards her shadow She froze when she witnessed the cold arrogance of her own shadow’s unresponsiveness As her…

Yet again

It’s on nights like the one today when I lay awake Trying to keep my head over the overwhelming grief I try to downplay My downfall gets triggered by any fragment of your memory that jolts my brain It ignites my soul and smolders my brain until tears fall out instinctively in pain As many…

Essence of being a woman

I’m surrounded by women around me Who pick apart each cell in their bodies like its their hobby I’m around women who in my opinion had nothing to feel insecure about Yet I am a witness to their sentience of a warped body image ingrained deep down It’s unfortunate to see so many women suffer…

Vices

I think I read it somewhere a while ago About how Cleopatra captured Julius Caesar’s fancy She only shared happy memories and thoughts with him To make him subconsciously associate the feeling of happiness with her presence When I read this, I was really impressed by her wit But I felt sorry for her too,…